We WILL live again!

I haven't posted in a couple of days because I've just been taking so long to get caught up on my online classes. That and we've been at the cabin a lot and slept there a night, so I didn't have a phone or anything. It's been really fun though! We went tubing down clear creek and had a little birthday party for Lanae. Yesterday Gina and Sierra invited a ton of people over to play games. Anyways it's been great! 

But today is our last online MTC class, and my teacher asked me to teach the restoration to each of my siblings in preparation. So this morning I was teaching Austin and Ronnie. It was so inspiring to see how much they knew and had no doubt about.

 At the end I told them that it didnt matter what happened to them as long as they kept the commandments. I told them that even if they died, they would be able to just go to heaven. When I said that both of their faces lit up, and they both started talking at the same time. They were telling me that after they died they were going to be able to live again and that they were going to have new bodies and they were going to see Heavenly Father and Jesus. They were so excited!! It was so cool to watch and I just realized how wonderful that really is. This was obviously something they had thought a lot about and were so grateful for. It really is a miracle and this little bit of knowledge brings so much peace! I wish everyone knew what these two boys know so well!

First fast Sunday at home

This morning there was a beautiful storm and everything just felt so clean and peaceful! 

We listened to Music and the Spoken Word and then had a really nice family testimony meeting! It has been so cool to be able to do church and take the sacrament with just our family. In Music and the Spoken Word they talked about how a lot of times there are hidden blessings in times that we feel are hurting us. He told a story of a woman who worked really hard in her garden and usually had a really plentiful harvest. But one year the plants just wouldn't grow and the bugs we constantly eating everything. At the end of the season she had a very small harvest, but looking back she realized that the extra time she had spent in the garden had been so peaceful and that time had really helped her. I feel like that is how the Lord works so much of the time. We don't see the blessings in a situation until we're looking back on it. ❤

After church, I went to a YSA devotional over Zoom. Then I made cookies and Steven and Joseph made honey taffy while listening to The Horse and His Boy. Mom also helped us and then came with us to deliver them. It was a really meaningful activity, and the people we visited were so grateful! 

After we got home, Steven and I read a couple more chapters together before going to the Leavitt's. What a good book! 

There were a ton of people over at the grandma's house! I think everyone was so excited that the restrictions have mostly been lifted that we all had the same idea. I played Settlers with Robby, Tyler and Ryan. It was super fun!

When I got home, mom told me about this idea she found for me to be able to become a dental assistant by May! It sounds like a really cool option, but I'm not really sure if it's what I'm supposed to do. I need to really receive some revelation, but I am so under confident in things like this. Somehow I have a feeling that as I really try to be guided and then just take a step into the best option, He will help me make the best decision. I just hope I can be humble enough to figure out what the best option is and not just the one I like the most!

ACCOUNTING😭😭

This morning I woke up at the cabin, and the boys and I made ramen noodles and hot chocolate over a propane stove for breakfast parentheses (Steven brought it :)). The ramen was actually really good, but we boiled the hot chocolate in a very questionable pot, and it ended up having a very weird flavor. The sunrise was beautiful, and it was just a wonderful morning!

When I came home I found out that I was way behind in this online accounting class I am taking which I thought I was all caught up on! Long story short... I spent ALL DAY LONG working on that class. The good news though is that while my missing assignments had brought my grade down to an F I was able to raise it back up to a 97%!! It was a long day and my head hurts!! But I learned a lesson about procrastination that I will never forget!

(Meanwhile I am falling furthur and furthur behind in my anatomy class 🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️ Thankfully I have a really nice teacher!) 

As it was nearing the end of the day and my brain was absolutely dead, I realized I still had a quiz due by the end of the day. I didn't feel very prepared for it but decided I needed to just go for it. There were ten questions and as I submitted each question (because for some reason you had to submit them all separately) I had a little heart attack because I knew my grade couldn't afford any more mistakes, and somehow I didnt miss a single one! I immediately said a prayer of thanks afterwards for giving me the answers and helping me with everything I could possibly need help with sometimes even before I ask for it. I felt so blessed! 

Really Heavenly Father knows that those little things in eternity probably won't matter, but He knows it matters to us. While He should always be first in everything we do, I believe as we try our best to follow Him, He will always be right there with us! That is so amazing to me❤

May Day!!

Today we celebrated May Day. I have loved this holiday for as long as I can remember! After running and a little bit of work this morning, I went to Aspen's house and we made little cheesecakes for the occasion. 

We finished just in time to take them to the May Day party. The boys were all a little jealous once they saw all the treats. Sierra and Ginger made a bunch of really yummy desserts including these things that were like giant swiss cake rolls! The highlight of the celebration is always wrapping ribbons around the May pole which was going pretty well until Brad and some other dogs started eating  the treats. I had to let my ribbon drop but we did it again later. 

There was music playing in the background and fun people and yummy treats. It was a great time!

Afterwards I was talking to grandma and she told me about a talk by President Oaks who talks about how he had planned out his whole life and nothing went as planned. I found the talk. It was a talk from a BYU devotional in like 2002 called "Sacrifice". I felt like it related so well to what I've been feeling and as we were talking I realized how wonderful it would be to look back on my life and realize I had gone everywhere the Lord wanted me to go and not just where I wanted to go. That is what President Oaks has done and I am sure even though he might have felt sad at the time, he wouldn't want to change a thing. This morning as I was walking to the blueberry patch, Uncle Casey caught up with me and as we were talking he said that the time in his life when he felt the most uncertainty was when he didnt know who he was going to marry. He finally just decided that he didnt know what was going to happen but his life was good so he was going to enjoy it and shortly after that Mandy showed up and they started dating. I realized my life is so good!! Why not enjoy it until Heavenly Father tells me what else I supposed to do! 

The last couple of days have been really hard for some reason and I felt a little bit like Heavenly Father wasn't listening. I was just grumpy at everyone and tired of trying to find out what God wanted me to do.I was complaining to someone when I realized that I was not exercising any faith. Of course this is all going to work out and that is because Jesus cared enough about me to suffer and sacrifice His life. Where was my gratitude! I determined to have a more faith filled and grateful attitude. That made all the difference! I have felt wonderful ever since even though nothing changed about my circumstances!

It was a great day! I am now spending the night out at the cabin with Steven and Joseph. I just know these are going to be times I will never forget!